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Rise Against "Savior": [27 Jul 2010|04:49pm]
[ mood | calm ]

It kills me not to know this but I've all but just forgotten
what the color of her eyes were and her scars or how she got them
as the telling signs of age rain down a single tear is dropping
through the valleys of an aging face that this world has forgotten

there is no reconciliation that will put me in my place
and there is no time like the present to drink these draining seconds
but seldom do these words ring true when I'm constantly failing you
like walls that we just can't break through until we disappear
so tell me now

if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know
that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

but the day pressed on like crushing weights
for no man does it ever wait
like memories of dying days
that deafen us like hurricanes
bathed in flames we held the brand
uncurled the fingers in your hand
pressed into the flesh like sand
now do you understand?
so tell me now

if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know
that' s when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have

one thousand miles away
there's nothing left to say
but so much left that I don't know
we never had a choice
this world is too much noise
it takes me under
it takes me under once again

I don't hate you
I don't hate you
so tell me now
if this ain't love then how do we get out?
because I don't know

that's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
that's when I told her I love you girl
but I'm not the answer to the questions that you still have
I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no

1 Stolen Holiday    I am the Pumpkin King!

[28 Jan 2010|10:30pm]
and so it begins
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Mark McGwire [11 Jan 2010|06:48pm]
I'll say it again, he never lied to Congress. Bonds, Sosa, Palmerio, Clemens, Rodriguez, Pettitte, and Giambi just to name a few all LIED about it (or are STILL lying about it). I mean at the end of the day everyone forgave Rodriguez and Pettitte for doing it and they will most likely be in the hall of fame. I believe that McGwire was one of the best students in the game about hitting. Something that steroids (and mind you I'm not agreeing with the use) can't give you is brains/eyes to study the game (if not help remove them) or the ability to swing. He had a beautiful swing; he worked really hard which was evidenced by his teammates, coaches and even the press. The idea that most of the marquee players had/have and are using steroids for "quick recovery" and some are forgiven and some aren't is bullshit. Yes I think the use prolonged his professional career, but he still had pretty great numbers. I don't know if he should get into the hall of fame because the idea of his career prolonged because of steroids. Not because of what he did accomplish though (his numbers are hall of fame for sure). I have had his poster on my wall since 99' when a friend gave it to me. HELL it's even FRAMED! I will totally be psyched to see him when i go to Cardinals games.

At the end of the day I think he is a fantastic player and person, and if people can forgive A-Rod then let him off the hook. If for no other reason he NEVER LIED nor deny it, he circumvented with his language but we all knew what it meant. Which is a bigger sin at the end of the day lying constantly or not? I think not.
   I am the Pumpkin King!

[04 Jan 2010|09:58pm]
Conveyor belt of love? I think not.
   I am the Pumpkin King!

[31 Dec 2009|07:33pm]
To start a new year, generally means to make promises that most never keep. The reflection on 2009 is I entered teh year the way I've ended it. However the way I started the decade although physically the same (sitting at home) is drastically different. Mostly cause I sport a chin strape of hair. Hopefully the decade of my 30's will be more fruitful than my 20's and just as memorable in the most positive ways.
1 Stolen Holiday    I am the Pumpkin King!

I sit here [13 Dec 2009|06:27am]
[ mood | awake ]

So I was thinking about keeping a journal of the next two months documenting my personal changes. I wanted to start it the 10th, so it could be an even number. But i failed at what I wanted to accomplish by keeping this journal, what i wanted to prove to myself. so I have to start again, today the 13th, with a new hope of changing the things that need to be changed within myself and my life.

   I am the Pumpkin King!

Breath [10 Dec 2009|07:30pm]
Breathing in the cold cold air, hearing the sharp crisp snow crunch underneath my foot, watching the dog tromp around in the yard. It's wonderful time of year, however the only thing I don't like is the mother fucking wind. Never.
   I am the Pumpkin King!

Hello LJ... [10 Nov 2009|11:11pm]
Well it's been awhile, but it's not that I don't think about it, I just don't take the time. I feed my add addiction with FB, and am pretty much over ms. So school has been what it's been the past two semesters, me filling my time with so much other crap. Some legit, some not. Lots of new developments torn knee, herniated disc in my back, left ankle/foot. I'm designing the set for the Purdue fall play, and secretary for a vets org.

okay dog is dancing, gotta go.
   I am the Pumpkin King!

Happy Halloween! [31 Oct 2009|10:13pm]
been awhile, but i am alive.
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It's almost there [29 Sep 2009|08:52pm]
getting closer and closer.
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full brain [25 Sep 2009|09:18pm]
I have had a lot of similar conversations over the same couple of topics. now it's up to me to figure out how best to deal with it.
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R.I.P. [14 Sep 2009|09:52pm]
Patrick Swayze, there will no one that dances like the wind like you.
1 Stolen Holiday    I am the Pumpkin King!

[12 Sep 2009|07:37pm]
headache alert
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Word. [10 Sep 2009|04:24pm]
Sometimes stepping back is what helps us leap forward.
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[08 Sep 2009|03:12pm]
[ mood | sore ]

truck is broken, body is broken, spirit crushed.

i'm dissappointed.

   I am the Pumpkin King!

Labor day? No real labor [07 Sep 2009|08:34pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Another restish day, some activity but the highlights had to be a walk, nap and home made dinner...

   I am the Pumpkin King!

[31 Aug 2009|08:28am]
First day of school. hm.
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[28 Aug 2009|09:18pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Clever dialogue and smart people make me happy and intimidate me at the same time.

   I am the Pumpkin King!

[27 Aug 2009|09:24pm]
I'm sick and this sucks.
   I am the Pumpkin King!

blah and bullshit [24 Aug 2009|11:25am]
[ mood | blah ]

damn i wish i could focus, well i know what i want to do and my brain is a bit all over the place. i want to do more but most of me is uninspired to do it. for some reason sleep seems like the best option as i'm exhausted. yesterday was low key so i'm not sure why my body is so sore. even the dog is over it, she wont get her cupcake (her fav toy), or snuggle, she just mopes around sighing. maybe she's missing my MiL?

On an unrelated note I fucking HATE that "plus size model" is someone not even normal (i.e. a size 4 or 6) considered big. I mean normal to me is 14 or 16 and it makes me furious that it isn't even considered for modeling. ugh hollywood bullshit. the world revolves around opinions and most (including my own) are bullshit. same thing that tanked the economy, opinions almost no facts.

   I am the Pumpkin King!

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